December31

Wednesday December 31, 1969 04:00:00 PM

so, it's been a while since i wrote in here hasn't it been ..?
today was kind of stressful for me.
sure it was fun in the beginning because he came over to visit me but then as the day progressed, my family became a pest and i wanted to use the bug spray to get rid of it!
sigh* he's at work right now and i'm just sitting here wondering ..

so many things have happened to me in the last 4 months ..
in 4 months, i deleted my 4 years old dairy. i tried to erase all memories and all pasts.
i told myself i didn't need to be reminded of it.
as long as i learned from everything and use the knowledge for the better of it then it doesn't matter if i lost the memories or purposely deleted it from my system.

although, it does pain me to click that 'move to trash bin' button.
but in the end, life moves on..
all living things will grow after it's first downfall and i will too ..
actually, i'm completely happy right now ..
the only negative thing is my family overreacting but i guess my family is bearable.. his family is beyond control.
they hold grudges for god sake! geeze.
sometime i just want to go to their face and say GET OVER IT!
i can never hold a grudge against my own son ..tsk tsk..